~UP UP UP~

I want to dedicate this song to you, hope you like it.

Do you know,

everytime you cry a tear,
my heart cries along too,
everytime you’re hurt, I’m hurt too.


You won't know because I never show, never tell, never say.


I love you more than you think, more than you believe,
no matter what happens,
I will always be there, always...


I need you because I love you.

for you, my love

Thank you for everything...

Thank you for being with me...

through the life,

thick and thin,

hard and soft,

up and down.

I know I'm acting childishly all these time.

words are not enough to express love.
No matter what happened, I just want to let you know,

I LOVE YOU,

我愿意。。。

Nightmare

Anger chained up with curiosity...

Lies spread everywhere...

Who is the nerd?

CJ Lucas, you are, always.

You know something, partly. but you have no right to figure it out.

You do, just you choose to wait, wait for the lies being buried down, hoping that you will being honest with me, for everything.

I'm in love with you, deeply, more than everything I take you.

But,

the trust I built, torn down...

What can I do?

Patience...I should take an intensive lesson on this.

Crossing my fingers,

hoping that, all the lies, will be washed away...away...

OR,

that's just my own imagination?

Pisces always have strong imagination as well as illusion.

This make them a creative cum innovative mankind, yet tearing them off apart.

This is the night, no more nightmare, hopefully...

Good Night My Baby.

YOU SHOWED ME

who am I to you, still a guy for you to kill time, perhaps.

I'm not sure, I can't figure it out.

You, show me....

you're bored being with me,
you're annoyed being with me,
you're just doing your own things all the times.

you pointed, up a lot of stuffs, from your own, which you yourself,

think it,
say it,
interpret it...

"I don't love you", from the beginning, we together until now, you just take it as it is, taking me just a guy who never love you from the bottom of my heart, what else I can say then?

In our blog, you said:

-Im having my midlife crisis nowadays.
ask my bf.
When we were walking at the mall,
He was always 10 feet away from me-

What The F, did I and do I?
stop accusing me for something, that never exist AT ALL!!!

-Shirley - weiwei sister bit me a lot.-
I told you how she acts like always, hope you don't mind.
you said she bit you a lot, she has a pair of shoes but just wanna give to you instead of others. Hmmmm, biting you?

that's always a reason for you to not accept the truth that we care about you.

-Christmas this year ?
Lets just say
I'll just laugh about it next year.-

Christmas, nobody wanna stay in this hulu state.
Neither me.
You requested to get away from the crowd,
requested to get your ass off from Penang,
now you're blaming me for that :D
Laugh at it next year, together we :)

nobody will read your blog? May I show my middle finger and say bullshit.
Published in facebook and you know people, around you- the guys, will always come and try to hehehehehe with you, your blog, no doubt for that... :)

so, what?
I don't know.
Follow the flow of the times, live as the day past.

*I'm broke, deep inside my ass*
Laugh at me, please.

What's wrong with the world?

What's wrong with you?

What's wrong with things around?

What's wrong with the world?

No matter what I did, u will never get satisfied. There is always some things, to be picked up.
Yes!!!

Whenever I am busy, I'm still there to accompany you, alright, I don't blame it.
But, at least can you treat me, the same?

"Call me when you are free"
I called, then you offed my call----- Reason: I don't feel like talking.

You can just ignore everything, included me, to move on.
"You are so annoying" :) Indeed I am, always.
I admit the fact, not that I don't trust you but do you ever reassure me, to trust you?
You said you know how to take care of yourself around the strangers, but do you know how and what are they thinking? Not everybody is same like you, you treat them nice, don't mean they will treat you back the same way.

Most of the people, not all. Most of them have some unexplainable intention, to take advantages on each other. Thus, face the real world, face the reality :)

I trust you, but? Gave a stranger your phone number, just like that....
I trust you, but? Out with a newly known guy, just like that...
You are being honest to me, I am glad..But after things happened, always. :)


I won't give a fuck to you if I you are my nobody. Think it, wisely.

I talked something sweet, you think it was fake.
I didn't talk much, you said I ignored you.
You could ignore me for some time, and then reached me by some sweet words, couldn't I?
at least, I know I won't ignore you.

You will never satisfied, with everything I have done.

Hello, my final exam is around the corner. I'm lacking out of time.
If wanna graduate, no more the risk, no more fail. get it!???

Fuck the world hard, harder!!!
Could I be treated, a little pricey?
Could I feel that I am worth, at least?

I don't need any sweet words, I don't need anything, I just hope you realize,
I am here, still.
I am breathing, still.
So, pay some attention to me.

No much time to waste?

I feel I am weak enough to move on...

old?

23 years old, trying to say you are old?

not.

But,

every early morning I wake up,

Spitting when you brush up,

Bleeding, that is...

What's happened to me?

What's wrong?

I don't know.

Dying soon, I scared seriously.

What if?

I suddenly leave this world.

Anybody will know about this?

Anyone will care about this?

I want to know everything...

but,

I am helpless.

Dead body, leaving in an empty room...7th floor?

Bless me~

Much Alone and Lost

Since ages I updated my blog.

Life goes on and still the same me. Nothing much special.

I'm still living in a life like a bitch. what's wrong with me?

Newly known a guy and went out with him, no intention of telling me (If I din't ask).

Who am I to you?

Somebody to kill your time, like you said.

.

..

...

I wait for you back, at least that are some words for me'? But, I got nothing.
You did like nothing big deal and I was in my rage, somehow I was out of control.

I don't want this.

I want a peaceful, honest conversation.

Could I?

Somebody you fall deeply for,

Out with other newly unknown guy.

What will happen to you if the unknown guy is a creature?
You don't even know him.

What about me? Left aside, all the way you had fun.

My dream, about this.

My woke up alarm, about this.

Words needed to tell me what was going on?

I am sorry for my offensive words, I don't mean it though.

My heart, falls...

Nobody gives a damn...